An Estonian Weekend in Berlin..

.. Hej guys!
I'm alive and I'd love to be able to say I'm fine, but this weekend is killing me..
Some of you remember my friend Marie, I guess.. she left on friday. Went to England and is going to stay there for three months, selling posters at different universities. The fact that she'll be travelling around all the time and doesn't really know where she'll be makes it difficult for me to visit her, because i'd have to do it pretty spontaneously but that's always quite expensive.. So, she was the first one to leave. The next is my friend Laura, who is going to Heidelberg down in Southern Germany to study.. it's about 8 hours by train from here, so I won't be seeing a lot of her for the next couple of years, I am afraid. And on monday one of my friends is going to Hungary to do her EVS there (though I'm proud to say I 'inspired' her to become an EVS-volunteer, it's not easy for me to be happy for her). Last (but Really not least) one of my friends is leaving to do his military service on monday as well..
So you see, it's a weekend full of good-byes and I'm just not used to this. It's so fucking much harder to stay behind than to go, I never realized since the only one i've ever had to see go away was Lili, and you've met her, it's different with her. She has to go. She's in Scotland in a buddhist monastery by the way and on Ocotber 19th she'll become a nun for a year.. no sex, no alcohol, no drugs, no singing (!!!!!!!!), no dancing.. But as i said, it's Lili we're talking about.. ;)

So this is all bringing my mood down to a horribly low level, but at least uni starts in 8 days for me, which I really hope will take my mind off these things.
I'm looking forward to uni A LOT, since i feel 90% of my brain-cells have died since I last went to school (it's been one and a half years full of alcohol and other shit..) and it's time to feel like i'm doing something purposeful ;)

So guys, have fun in Lyon, i didn't know you were all going, sounds brilliant!
Oh, and I'm going to France for like a week around Easter next year.. though I'm not sure where yet, I think they said somewhere close to Paris, so that's a bit shitty, but I'll keep the French people around here informed ;)

I love you guys.. and I loved the wall. Can anybody tell me what happened??
Miss you all.. especially this weekend!

musi, kalli, kalli, musi!

Laura

news from Germany.. finally :)

Hello my beloved fellow-crazy-people!

I'm so terribly sorry, I'm really bad at writing (not just lately, though, I regret to say).. but seriously, I've been insanely busy ever since I came back, which is good, I guess, because otherwise I'd feel weird - like most of you, who have gone home already..
Anyways, I'm doing fine. I'm very happy to have big-city-air around me again, to meet my friends, go out and take public transport home in the middle of the night, drink cocktails, go dancing, smoke inside, have all my CDs and do my fucking uni-applications.. and you know what?!?! Today I'VE BROUGHT ALL MY APPLICATIONS to the unis or the post-office.. which means that now, finally, it's out of my hands and other people get to decide what will happen with me :) It's a brilliant feeling, really.. :)
I do miss you guys, of course, and I miss summer and sun.. it has hardly ever stopped raining or being cloudy around here since I came. I'm walking 'round in sweater and coat and it's awful.. but they say this weekend it'll get nicer..
Actually, I have to go, my friend just left, but I'm meeting another one at 8 and since I do live a bit off the shot now, I'll have to get ready and leave soon.
I love you and hope to see some of you soon!! :)

Ah, two pictures, one for those who recognize what it is, just because it's funny, and the other one cause it's a very special sweater, but I guess you can't see that ;p